The New Heroes Chapter 3
Hero In My Heart
by Bethany
URL: http://www.stargateslash.com/asb/bethany7/newher03.php
Summary: Daniel and Jack discuss things, now that it seems they might be Heroes of another kind, and open their hearts, (metaphorically!) in private...
Daniel sat down on the sofa with Jack. "Now what?" He asked. "If we have to tell them, we have to tell them about us, well, me at least..."
"Me, too..." Jack rubbed the back of Daniel's hand supportively.
"They'll find out anyway..." Daniel stated.
"Doesn't sound like Mohinder's people are any better!" Jack mused, and then, looked apologetically at Daniel. He didn't need to be adding to his burdens any right now!
"But then," Daniel began, "this could all be moot. I could turn completely into a woman. Daniel could disappear, and we could introduce me as my own long lost sister, then, you'd be in the clear, and our baby might be protected! The SGC might not have anything to do with him or her, or whatever!" Daniel paused. "What if I'm becoming a third gender, if I'm lucky, that'll be the third gender of humanity, rather than..." He trailed off. "What if the baby is, too? Do women become obsolete or something?" Daniel shivered. "Is this what being gay turns out to be all about?" Daniel shivered again. "Nothing more than genetic planning... It might stop all the prejudicial crap, but I very much doubt it..!"
"You heard what Mohinder said." Jack reminded Daniel. "There might even be women out there who are, gender-wise, at least, turning into men..."
"So, being stuck in the wrong gender body, being transsexual, like some people are, could just be Evolution trying to assert itself..?" Daniel pondered. A look crossed his face. "Jack, I could... I could literally turn into a woman... Baby's need breastfeeding! And that isn't funny!! If I'm a woman, you won't truly even fancy me anymore!!"
"I will love you for eternity..." Jack said. Statement of fact. Not poetic bullshit.
"But you won't fancy me..." Daniel replied, as matter of factly. "If we can't do the same things, turn each other on in the same way..."
"I'll show you mine if you show me yours, you mean?" Jack asked.
"If I haven't got one to show you, Jack, if I can't use it on you... Make love to you, like you do me... Even if, most of the time it's always been you in me anyway... Something we're both happy with..." He stopped to assure Jack... "Then, God forbid, if a real God exists, I might not feel like makin love anymore, especially if this baby making ability is not a one off. Is it fair to bring them into this really screwed up world? If a God exists, He's got to help us sort it. Maybe, He is... "
"He has to exist..." Jack stated. "He's looking after Charlie for me because I couldn't, or didn't, or both..." Jack had never said that out loud before.
Daniel put his hand up, touched Jack's face. "Charlie's accident was his accident."
"You might feel differently if God lets us keep this baby, and hence, if he trusts me again..." Jack said.
"I'll always know the truth, Jack. What happened to Charlie was not your fault. He got hold of your gun because curiosity pushed him to find a way..." Daniel said.
"If the gun hadn't been there, he wouldn't have been able to unlock the cabinet to find it. If I'd been able to get through to him better, he wouldn't have gone looking for it... Maybe, we should just opt out, run away... No guns, no nothing!"
"We'll probably need some protection, Jack... That's the truth of it..." Daniel stated.
Jack reached out, and, in a mirror of moments earlier, touched Daniel's face lovingly. "We're not toys of some genetic destiny. Destiny comes into it," He stroked Daniel's face. "Already has... Without you, I'd still be foolin' myself... It's not just about gratitude for what you did for me when we first met, for giving me my life back... And it's never been about filling gaps in each other's lost families... Until now, maybe, when we can, please, God, do this together... You and me is about the way we make each other feel..."
"What if I stop making you feel that way?" Daniel worried.
"You won't. It's you!" Jack honestly told him.
"I might not be me soon..." Daniel began to panic.
"You will always be you, and I will always love you, and when we make love, it won't be a pity fuck or a thank you shag, it'll be about how hot you are, about how hot we still are together, about how much we still need, and will always need, and love, each other..." Jack spoke from his heart to Daniel's.
The End
Author's Note: I make no money, and mean to step on no one's toes at all,by writing my stories... Feedback welcome as long as it is always polite.
