There Are More Things In Heaven And Earth Than Are Dreamt Of In Your Philosophy, Horatio... 1
Estoy Aqui
by Bethany
URL: http://www.stargateslash.com/asb/bethany7/estoyaqu.php
Summary: Jack, unusually emotional, and ever-overburdened, pours out his heart to his old friend, Horatio Caine, after Daniel's Ascension
Info: Song by Shakira, quote by Shakespeare (I think!)
I know now that you will not come back, after all that happened,
I know that you will not return,
what happened to us,
will never happen again,
a thousand years can go by,
and I still will not be able to erase you and
forget,
And now I am here wanting to change the countryside into a city, to mix the sky with the sea, I know that I let you escape, I know that I have lost you.
nothing will ever be the same,
a thousand years can go by (a thousand years can go by) so that you may somehow forgive...)
I am here, wanting you, drowning myself,
with pictures and notebooks,
with things and memories,
that I cannot understand.
(Lyric Translation retrieved off the net, and NOT provided by me!)
"There are more things in Heaven and Earth than are dreamt of in your philosophy, Horatio..." Jack quoted to his friend of the same name.
Horatio smiled gently.
Jack took a swallow of his beer. "I woke up crying in my sleep again today, did you know that?" He said, admitting things he never normally would, never had, not knowing why. Drunkenness was no excuse. He'd been trained to withstand torture; he had withstood torture, but not this. "Thought I'd got through that phase in my life..." he looked at the wall. "Now, I'm doing it all over again, for another reason..."
"Love of a romantic kind..." Horatio knew it was true of his friend.
"Shh!" Jack demanded. "You're not supposed to know that! No one is, not even me!!" He wiped his eyes tiredly. "But maybe Daniel..."
"I'm sure he knows..." Horatio said. "Like you told me, there are more things in Heaven and Earth..."
"Yeah, most of which you're not supposed to know about!" Jack spoke quietly.
Horatio let that admission go by him. He knew Jack had worked Black Ops, probably still did...
"I know he's out there... He exists on some level, but I feel like we can't reach each other, even though maybe we did, and it wouldn't matter even if we could... But I wish it would!"
"I've been through something a bit like that..." H confessed.
"Oh, yeah?" Jack asked.
"Tim..." H replied.
"Did his heart belong to someone else?" Jack asked, thinking of Daniel's love for Sha're, and feeling hopeless yet again.
"Possibly." Horatio recalled how it was Eric that supposedly saw Speed's ghost.
"How the fuck am I supposed to go back to work, Horatio?" Jack pondered. "There are so many reasons I have to!" He paused. "More than ever this time..."
"You'll get there, my friend..." Horatio replied, hoping he wasn't putting undue, or at least, unfair, pressure on Jack...
"I looked through all his stuff... I had to pack it away, and now, it won't be there! I don't know what's worse!! And I'm so tired of crap like this!! I wasn't there again!!!" The tears in Jack's eyes then, were for more reasons than Daniel alone, though he was more than enough...
The End
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